Out with the old

How many times have I heard that God is doing a new thing?!

What does this really look like, though?
 
The first time I can look back on my life and see this (but didn't realize it at the time) is when I was going through puberty.

I was in fifth grade when I got my period. I had been warned it was coming but it's like having a baby, until you experience it, all words are meaningless.

It was in October and I was 10 years old. I am the oldest child and my mother calmed me down and gave me all the things necessary to alleviate any mess. Not from anything she said or didn't say, this is what I perceived it to be, a mess. My life was much more messy from that point on. Things were changing in me, I didn't know Christ and as much as my mother tried, I wouldn't open up to her. 

Now looking back and asking God to meet me at those moments, this is what I hear:  "Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert." Isaiah 43:18-19

He was doing a new thing in me, a beautiful thing that is messy. This messy gift is what allows life to enter into this world. I am Eve, a life giver. Not just in the flesh and producing babies, which I have done four times. In my words, He has given me the power to produce life but the freedom to destroy and bring death.

He has made a way out of the wilderness and desert that was so messy and brought me back to where I started in this world, to breathe my first breathe. To understand I am alive because He is alive, I breathe because He breathes, I love because He loves. I am more than a mess because He created life and desires me to bring life.

Everyone has stories of how God has created something new in them. Sometimes through words that are said or just our own perception, the gift that He intended is twisted into a curse. Ask Him to come and meet you right where you are, maybe in your own mess.